2's and 3's and 23's (smiletodie) wrote,
2's and 3's and 23's

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this weekend was fucked.
friday chris and i, for reasons that will be left unmentioned, had a real fight for roughly 5 hours.
i cried, the words break up were thrown in there a few times.
then he apologized and kissed me and told me he loved me.
i said it was alright. and so on.

then saturday things were better and we went out to eat breakfast and then that night after sitting at steak and shake drinking coffee we headed back home to go to sleep at two in the morning.
this is where his step father proceeds to follow us in chris's room right after we shut the door.
donny looked at me and said get the fuck out and go the fuck home.
i was baffled i had no clue what the hell was going on.
so chris said alright come on let's go.
donny wouldn't move out of chris's way.
chris had just gotten a tattoo on his chest donny pushed that tattoo and chris threw donny threw the bathroom into the kitchen where he smacked his head on numerous things.
chris's mom came in to break it up, and told donny we were leaving and she came with us and we got a room.

things are adding and adding and adding.
we are staying strong.
only a little over five months before we move.
we're both excited and this is well needed.
i told everyone i would do this one day.
apparently i was the only one serious all those times.

it has been a really long time since i've been on the internet at all.
let alone how long it's been since i've updated this thing.
it almost feels weird laying out stuff for the public again.

i pick chris up at 12:50 today.
i'll stop feeling like i have a missing piece.

i'm glad chris has money to do things he wants now, but i hate that some of it gets spent on me, because one of the comments his step dad said is eating away at me. he said "she's taking you for all you've got, wake up and see that boy."
now donny isn't necessarily one of the smartest creatures he can't even spell, but it's just the fact that it was said when i don't give a fuck about his money.
we could be poor and living in a box, or sleeping in my car, i know we've done that a time or two, and i still love him completely.

alright i want a bubble bath i think it's been even longer than the internet since i've had one of those.

sorry it's been a long time guys.
things are trying to change.
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