i've been gone a while.
i'm pretty bored that's all this is.
unfortunately mine and chris' apartment doesn't have a washer and dryer so we're at his grandma's washing clothes and unlike our broke asses, she has the internet.
i'm sloooowly learning that not having friends anymore and not having a life outside of my apartment is taking a toll.
there is major sarcasm on the "sloooowly" i referred to earlier.
i miss sooooooooo many people.
i'm in this big uncontainable blank space.
i wish everything could change without anything changing if that makes any sense to anyone but me.
i'm a fucking stepford wife, only worse.
but i love too much.
if it weren't for the good times and things i can't even explain i'm not sure i would be where i am.
i don't know what i'm saying.
nothing is going the way i thought my life would.
to those of you even still bothering with lj, and know who what all i'm rambling about; i do still love him.
i highly suggest to anyone that's unhappy to get a puppy, name her rice and let her believe she is a baby.
she is my only joy most of the time.
but things have to start drastically changing.
most of all i miss my friend. well three of them to be exact.